Day 15: Muddling Through

It has been one week since the election.  The press is carrying frightening stories of Trump appointees and so many of us are still finding ourselves trying to explain why this matters.  And feeling so very frustrated about how the reasons should be obvious.

People are mobilizing.  Marches are being planned and phone calls are being made.  People are connecting and making their voices heard.  For some this is automatic but for many, perhaps the majority, this sort of action is new.

We are all trying to wrap our heads around what the future might hold and still keep some sense of normalcy.  Trying to find a way to function, taking care of our families, going to work, getting through the day while carrying the terrifying realization that nothing is normal anymore.

The day after the election self care was the top of the list on my three action steps.  A week later and I feel like this is something I have failed in.  I'm not sleeping well and I'm not moving/exercising as much as I'd like to be.  I'm physically tired and my mind seems full of white noise.  I feel a need for a routine but I'm having a difficult time in establishing one.

I am trying to be easy on myself, to recognize that I am doing the best that I can right now.  I know I am capable to doing better and doing more, but I have to accept where I am right now.

I'm muddling, like many of us, the best that I can.