Time is the reason for a lot of my life decisions; mainly because like many of us I don't have enough of it. I made the choice a few years ago to live a creative life. I wanted to dedicate myself to being an artist in whatever form my art may take. And it takes a lot of forms: writing, dancing, choreographing, sewing, crocheting, drumming and teaching.
Currently my endeavors include:
- writing this blog
- managing and directing a performance troupe
- performing with said troupe as dancer, MC and musician
- a separate solo dance path
- bettering my drumming skills
- teaching workshops on live music dance performance
- teaching a weekly dance class
- forming a student dance troupe
- custom crochet work
I also of course work a day job and attend school full time. Today I am face to face with the fact that I don't have enough time to do all of it - at least not now - which leaves me with the options of finding a way to better manage my time or making the choice to let go of something.
And I truly don't want to let go of any of it.
Some choices are easy; I have to keep my job and school has an end date so I keep both of those. I won't give up teaching classes and workshops as it consistently brings me great joy and I learn just as much from my students as I teach them. It is also just beginning to become a reliable source of income. The crochet work I only take when I know I have the time. Actually if I kept going I'd likely find justification for keeing all of it.
...and that is where the struggle is.
And thus the break from blogging. I've not been able to keep up with it regularly anyway and so I might as well make it official so that I at least I'll stop feeling bad about not doing it. Hopefully over the next month I'll have at least a few moments to give some thought to whether or not to keep Spinster Jane alive.
In the meantime, enjoy the rest of spring and I'll see you in June.